Well I have had a bit fo a meltdown and I know I am acting like a complete bitch and being horrible to my husband and I will have to grovel big time when he comes home but I just don't know where these emotions are coming from!
So again I got barely anysleep last night so I have tried so hard this morning to fall asleep and everytime I do domething wakes me or I feel like I'm not sleeping properly or pain wakes me so I still haven't managed even an hour :(
So I decided to go down and make some lunch and the sandwich is the easiest thing because I can wrap it up pop it in a bag and carry it through to a room or table but I went in the fridge and there was no meat cheese anything and Scott did a £100 shop online that was delivered yesterday so I lost it and rang him and asked him why he hadn't ordered anything and he said sorry I forgot but I still felt mad and wanted to shout so I quickly put the phone down before i said things I would later regret :( God how he must be going through hell at the moment I am so miserable all of the time and this was mean't to be our new start!
So I came back upstairs had a good cry and got a very long shower sat on my seat I will have to go and sit at the kitchen unit on my perching stool and eat a bowl of soup or something as it is the only way to do it but I just don't want too :(
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