It's been a while.........

So I haven't posted for a while not sure why just don't think I have had much to say!

I had my appointment at Wrightington with the registrar and he basically said I need to chill out and stop worrying about my progress as it could take 6 to 12 months :( That is a depressing thought but one that I just have to get on with!

My knee is still at 90 degree bend and it almost feels like something is stopping it from bending further so the physio has suggested I just do some stretches and light bends and not push it past the pain barrier so that's the plan for a few days.

The pain is still the same I tried to reduce the meds by 10mg last weekend but I just ended up taking double the amount of oramorph so I upped them again and I will try it again in a month.

The sleeping is my main issue so my lovely GP has given me some sleeping tablets and Thursday night I got 5 hours and last night I got about 7 I still feel wrecked today but that is because I probably had about 10 hours in a week before that!

Scott has had his renogram and we have to wait a few weeks for his results we aren't too worried though,what will be will be.

I haven't seen much of my friends recently we all have so much going on :( Hopefully we will all get chance to catch up soon I miss them xx

So I will sign off for the weekend :)

90 degree bend.....

is what I am at and I do not thing I will be getting past it anytime soon so he best be happy with it on Friday!!!

My PT couldn't do too much today as my knee was swollen so we just did lots of stretches and wonderful massages :)

I'm looking forward to a day off appointments tomorrow and just a chill day with hubby hopefully!!

In the middle of the night

So it's 3.17am and I am wide awake not in pain particularly I just can't find a position to sleep in that doesn't ache after half an hour or so!I'm also worrying about PT later on today,I know it's doing the world of good but while he is working on me I actually scream in pain I feel stupid and wonder if my pain threshold is really poor???He always apologises too and says he hates doing it 

Apart from PT things are ok I'm still not managing to do too much day to day without increased pain,for example today I made breakfast did my exercises and was in pain so rested and iced.Then at lunch I tidied the bedroom and kitchen made lunch did exercises and again was in pain so rested.Then at dinner time I helped with tea put a wash on and some on maiden and in dryer made the kids lunches and I could feel my knee steroid to throb so I had tea and a shower did exercises and got into bed for the night about 7pm and I was in quite a bit of pain by then and it was time for evening Meds!

Well I suppose I should try and sleep hubby leaves for work in an hour so that will give me more of the bed and more positions to try and get to sleep in!

See you in a few hours!!

Another physio appointment

I have just got home from physio and I have to say it exhausts me!

I had problems over the weekend and I heard a crucnh in my knee and then a small pocket of fluid appeared on the right hand side of my kneecap it seems they think it was a piece of scar tissue being broken through and the swelling is just the knees way of protecting itself and letting me know something is going on they said to keep icing and elevating and to keep up with all the physio I have been doing.

Then we went on to 40 minutes of sheer hell!There is no other way to describe it :( I lie on my front and he pushes my knee over and over again my leg was quiveing whilst he was doing all this and I was biting the sleeve of my jumper!It is horrible but it gets me to 95 degrees by the end of the session so I suppose I just have to put up with the pain????

Anything else?

Can anything else really happen?

We were at the hospital yesterday and the scans showed Scott has an abnormality on his kidney so he has to have yet more tests!While we were at the hospital there was anthrax scare luckily we just escaped being caught up in it all!

Today Lucia is ill and I am really worried she is trying to avoid eating,she says she feels dizzy quite a lot at school and she seems to be avoiding eating full meals :( I am going to take her to the doctors next week.

Last night was the worst night I have had in a long time I was in so much pain and I couldn't sleep it was 4am before I dropped off and then was awake again at 7am and I haven't been able to sleep today so I feel terrible :(

Oh well onwards and upwards!!